This afternoon I had a conversation with Ophelie< that led to her admitting that she no is longer interested in recording our show, the Double O Podcast< together. It has nothing to do with me as a person. It’s not that we do not get along or anything on a personal level. There is no drama to be had or anything like that. She has just lost a lot of interest in World of Warcraft and hasn’t been participating in the community like she used to (e.g. her blog, Twitter), so I kind of had a feeling that this was something that was going to start affecting the show and it has.
This leaves me with three options:
1) I can try to find a new co-host – an honorary “O,” if you will, since it’s highly unlikely that I would meet someone whose name happens to start with “O” and that I mesh well with. Preferably this person would have some knowledge or desire to learn how to handle the editing or the behind the scenes aspects of the podcast, whereas I would continue handling the more social aspects of the show (e.g. promotion, finding guests, coming up with topics).
2) I can move on from the Double O Podcast and perhaps join another existing podcast that is looking for a guest host. I really do enjoy podcasting and I admit that there are so many sides to it that I still have yet to see or to understand. I think podcasting is a great way to get people talking and to expand your audience in a way that blogging can’t.
3) I can stop podcasting altogether and focus on my blog and other community efforts (e.g. spend more time posting on forums like Elitist Jerks, MMO-Champion, or the official boards).
Without sounding too dramatic, I feel like my walls are caving in. I have already been dealing with uncertainties regarding what I want to do in Mists of Pandaria, then this< comes along, and now this. I keep wondering who is next. It seems like everyday someone else I know, someone I admire, or that I respect, or someone that I have some genuine history with decides to call it a day and stops playing World of Warcraft. It’s like a demented game of Guess Who< and I’m the one in front of the board just flipping faces down, one by one. There aren’t many faces still standing anymore and that’s mighty depressing to me.
Am I next?